Thank you for this comment, Daniela. I can completely relate. I loved the way you describe the idea that for so long “freedom” has meant giving into addictive desire. I am used to feeling that way too and it’s definitely a shift in thinking to embrace a different kind of freedom. I think I will struggle with that and the sadness as well.
I guess that’s why it’s so important to pick a motivation that is immediate and more tangible to hold onto instead. And also to remember that it’s not as if you can’t go back and get it later. I like thinking of it not as “never” but rather “not right now.”