Quick update:
Because thinking about “Making choices for now” I just realized that I am doing this in my work also. I’ve made long term choices about the type of work I want to do, the hours I want to work, how much of a role work plays in my life. But nowadays I feel differently than I did when I make those choices and I feel oppressed, resistant and resentful. I need an update in my choices and more flexibility in the way I approach it.
I never really realized what was going on before!