“I’m telling myself there’s no point in ‘starting’ to engage with myself around choice etc until we reach week 3. So I seem to be trying to get as much over eating in as I can before I ‘start doing it properly’.”
Sheelagh, it will be best for you to choose the overeating you are doing and remember you can continue to do that.
You seem to think that “starting to engage with myself around choice etc” means you will no longer overeat. That’s your denial of your future choices and you are in rebellion against that.
More on this on Sunday.