Right from the start, when you began this course, you’ve been reluctant to acknowledge your freedom of choice about what you do or don’t eat. So, my guess is that you have difficulty with unsatisfied desire because you still don’t get that it’s your own free choice to feel it. Does that fit for you?
Your answers in the “Exploring Desire” exercise contain a number of reactions that would come if you had been forced or made or coerced into feeling it:
“I feel desperate. I feel like I’m going to explode if I don’t get my fix. It feels unbearable and intense. I get snappy and irritable.”