Thank you Gillian.
That does explain it. I can see it clearly now I AM afraid of losing my freedom to over eat. I will work on this and explore my feelings and thoughts. What I’ve found also is that I’ve deliberately not bought treats so I can’t over eat. Which to me is denying my freedom to over eat and is more about complying to rules. The ‘not buying treats’ that I’m talking about is where I’ve NOT worked through my AD in the shop. I’ve just said “no I can’t have this or I’ll eat the lot” – denying my freedom of choice.
It seems so much clearer to me and has pointed me in the right direction. Thank you.