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Ciara Z
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Hi all, I’m still grappling with the concept of addictive desire. Is it ok to be in a grey area with addictive desire? A sort of middle ground. As in – I don’t want to be rebellious or compliant, however my perfectionist eating is convincing me that I should never give in to an urge, and if I do I’m just reinforcing it, thus making me feel like I’ve blown it. I’m so used to living by rules that I feel if I’m left to my own devices I’ll go bananas! For example, after dinner sometimes I’ll eat a few leftovers, or have an extra biscuit. In a scale of 1 to 10 it would be a 2 as opposed to a full 10 as experienced in a binge. But I’m coping ok.with this, and telling myself that I can continue eating all night if I want. I realise that I should attempt to change one thing at a time, but I’m so tempted to do it all at once.