Hi again Victoria
I have felt shame about my body even when it wasn’t all that big. All my shame has done for me is to make me more obsessed with weight and in turn, ultimately, made me eat more which of course has meant getting heavier. A strange paradox but very real nevertheless. I keep thinking back to what Gillian said in one of the first sessions where she said that one of her clients would wake up every morning and think ‘i’m still huge’. I definitely have that every morning but I am trying to counter it with these thoughts: ‘yes for now I am. And may always be. Who knows? All that I do know is that being in more control of my eating feels good’. I have to keep saying it to myself to get it to go in!