it feels like i am coming closer to some fundamental things/thoughts i want to change and see what will happen.
Today i went to the city and i had a great dinner with friends. I choosed my food due to the question how i will feel afterwards and tomorrow morning. That is a very great question and makes life easier.
After that i went home seeing a delicious ice- cream palor.
And while i was walking closer to it, i did not feel any wanting of going inside. But then i was thinking: Even if i want to have ice cream now, would i ever eat it without regretting it? My choices is always no anyways, i am never okay with eating it and that created a small craving. IS that the perfectionism you are talking about?