Oh Sally, how awful for you. Yes, you are describing addictive desire and in particular the ‘mindset’ that goes with it, which is the way we explain and support our addictive overeating.
We looked at mindset in Session 5.
Your self-esteem took a beating, and it’s very common to follow a cycle with that: I’m worthless, so I might as well do something that reflects that, and then you do that thing, which further proves the lack of worth… and so on.
It was two days ago – are you doing better now? Are you able to see the good in yourself and your life?