I am following. I’m not sure I have great advice to give for choice is an area where I can get tripped up as well.
And I too have been revisiting all of the lessons as well.
I do, however, truly believe that YOU ARE IN NO WAY BROKEN AND that you can ABSOLUTELY heal from BED.
Neuroplasticity is real and you can change the habitual patterns at any time in your life, no matter how long you’ve engaged in a habit. I’ve been at this for longer than you (almost 40 years) and I have imperfectly healed from it.