Thanks Gillian, yes I think thats a good idea. What has just popped into my head is a line from a song, you might know it.’Here it comes again, that feeling, here it comes again’ Ill try that- it is more friendly and it is certainly a feeling. For me its like an actually itch in my brain! And working through addictive desire- slowly- will let me change that itch- or at least scratch it in a different way than I have in the past! see you tomorrow!