“Why would I choose to eat foods that I know in the end cause me so much physical distress, and the truth be told I only want these foods when I have a craving for them, I never crave them when I want true nourishment. I am wondering if the panic is part my personal history of backing myself into a corner with no choice option to have these foods?”
Yes, Patti, panic is certainly a symptom of deprivation, the feelings that arise when you believe you have locked yourself into a “no choice” situation.
Your desire for them comes from cues (not always easy to identify and this doesn’t matter) and your past experiences of consuming those foods, which are highly rewarding to the limbic brain (often sugar).
The two together are a dreadful combination: craving for biochemical reward – and – deprivation if not satisfied.