Dear Julia,
Every sentence has given me value. I’m deeply grateful for your post.
Yes, I see what you are saying, that expecting AD and then making an empowered choice knowing you will expect to eat has made a great deal of difference for you. I love that, very encouraging indeed.
And I expect that when I haven’t slept and/or am dealing with some kind of uncomfortable emotion (uncertainty about my return to work with COVID for example), I will have the AD to eat, and then I can make an empowered choice.