Gillian your description of being raised by authoritarian parents fits me very well. What I realized is that I have internalized their voices and now I am being authoritarian with myself. So now I can choose to be authoritative with myself and give myself permission to eat whatever I want but to also suggest a healthier way, and to count the cost in advance. This feels very empowering to me and I see that it’s time for me to re-parent myself. It’s never too late to have a happy childhood!